On a bumpy flight to Phoenix I let my mind run ramped. I kept seeing in my mind a plane blowing up in mid air over and over again. I was replaying every movie plan crash in my head and I was freaking out. Well obviously the plane landed safely with no issues and everything was fine except for my mind. Over the next 5 years I was terrified to fly. I would drive any chance I could to avoid flying. I would get physically sick before I got in the plane and could not relax until the plan landed then I would be worried about the return flight the entire trip. Oh and if we hit any turbulence my mind start playing those movies scenes over and over in my head.
So how did Fight Club help me even though there was a plane crash scene in the movie?
“You are not special. You’re not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You’re the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We’re all part of the same compost heap. We’re all singing, all dancing crap of the world.”
― Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club
Well the part that says I am not special I am not unique there is nothing so special about me I am the same as everyone else in this world, and what makes me think I am so special that I would be in a plane crash. The only people that are in plane crashes are rock stars and I am no rock star. Thousands of people are in the air over the US every day every hour and what make me think that I would be a person in a plane crash. This really had me thinking.
Now this was not the only thing that helped my fear of flying but it become my mantra I play in my head when I start getting worried about flying.
Another big help to my fear of flying was mediating. I found a couple apps to help me mediate one is Headspace https://www.headspace.com/ which gives you a 10 days 10 min session for free but its a great 10 day session that teaches you a lot about meditation. The other is buddhify http://buddhify.com/ which cost maybe 2.99. By meditating I didn’t turn into a Buddhist monk or a new age hippy but it did teach me how to take control of my thoughts.
Now I strongly recommend watching the movie Fight Club and reading the book by Chuck Palahniuk I think it has a lot of good messages hiding that can help look at our lives a little different like a dark mirror.